Today I found a little bit of myself back in line with where I wanted to be. I didn't get motivation to clean the house, more because I know my husband wanted me to rest, wanted my oldest to rest because he wants this cold bug ridden from our home. I did find myself thinking about patterns to do some quilts, watching a movie with my oldest, who was home from school, and fussing at the kids to make sure they got their chores done, which they have not done in forever.
I also found myself completely thankful that I had the day off.
I didn't have to run to work this morning and leave a sick child at home alone- which he is 12 so he can manage a few hours while I work, but I hate that torn feeling as a mom. I also got to enjoy his company too. My oldest rarely ever gets sick. It has been a few years since he has stayed home from school. It was nice to be able to just lay back and watch a movie and just have some one on one time. What I felt silly about is, why does it take them getting sick for my world to stop for them?
I am fairly busy, yet you would never know by the condition of my house, because I am not busy with housework- it is a wreck right now. I do work part time outside the house caring for a woman, I do make quilts to sell online and to people that order from me outside of Etsy or Ebay. Yet there are times where it seems like life doesn't slow down enough to spend a few precious moments with them. Real moments where I am not on the laptop blogging or responding to emails, where I am not cutting fabric, or folding clothes while a movie is on.
So in a way I was given this sick day of his to remind myself that I need to still set time aside for them on my schedule during the week, not just on Fridays, Saturdays or Sundays. Take a few moments and connect, maybe even in the same style that I do when my husband gets home. As they have gotten older it is harder to remember to ask about their day, or what they are learning in school. It is rush rush, they get home, get a snack, do a chore, do their homework, we eat dinner-as a family typically, then it is shower time and bedtime. Once in a while we might get a movie in or a 30 min show but yet just rush rush rush rush rush.
Sometimes my time with God can be the same way. I quickly read and am off and going to start whatever the day holds, so now I start my week with a refocused heart. To take time in ALL my Relationships- family, friends and most importantly God. I know I am not currently doing a devotional right now, or a bible study, my schedule has not permitted me to participate in anything right now. I may just find something I can do by myself at home though just for that added inspiration to stay focused and where my heart would like to be in trying to be that Proverbs 31 woman.
My verse for today:
Psalm 33:22May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in you.